An addict is soothed when he gets what he is addicted to. O hypocrite! You have naturally failed to appreciate, nay even denied, the beauty and correct position of the Divine Truth. In fact you are a conglomeration of belief and disbelief. That implies that you are an infidel, (more so because due to the deep rooted hypocrisy you cannot discriminate between the truth and falsehood, (i.e. you are much too egoist and prejudiced to realize monotheism and monism in the correct perspective). So your faith is soiled with disbelief and such a faith is tantamount to disbelief.
a) (The hypocrites) waver between this and that, belonging neither to these (i.e. to the believers) nor to those (i.e. the non-believers.)(143, Al-N isa).
Note: Allah has referred to the Quran as حق or the ‘Truth’ vide verse No. 170, Al-Nisa, translated as under:
O mankind! The Apostle has indeed come to you with ‘Truth’ from your Lord
b) And among men there is he who serves Allah on the fence. Then if good befalls him, he is content therewith; and if there is a trial for him, he returns to his former way. He loses in this world as well as in the Hereafter. That is a manifest loss. (11, Al-Hajj).
c) That is because they had believed, then disbelieved. So a seal was set on their minds, and consequently they understand not. (3, Al.Munafeqeen).